Creating Comics At Last

So I received my disbursement from indiegogo and the colossal fees were taken. I was left with the money to do about two pages of the comic . The plan being to use these to promote the book for a crowd funding relaunch. Now the artist isn't doing new commissions and I have to find a new one for the additional pages which will now certainly be in a different style from the first. Two weeks politely waiting for a reply two weeks wasted. Now to begin again I've got to hunt for a new artist and compare prices and styles . Begin the indiegogo again and hope to hell I get more than 3 percent funding not be so pissed off at starting the whole thing again Still working on the anger thing. and the jealousy too.. Seeing multi decade pro's crowd funder campaigns do well is no where near as traumatic as seeing first timers become wildly successful where all I've have know is dismal embarrassing failure. All the years I put my dreams on hold to look after dyi

So here I sit. A failed indiegogo under my belt and not exactly a song in my heart. I told myself I was fine Not all crowdfunders succeed  First timers doubly so . No one knows who you are .no one yet ,at least . Even if it fails you get your name out there and be better for next time. I was fine So it was more than a little concerning when I tried to smash the absolute fuck out of my computer monitor the other day. My slow pc ,several years old ,was making a 5 minute job into a 45 minute marathon. The next thing I knew I've wrenched the monitor up ready to use it as a hammer to Break my desk .? I came to my senses and order was restored to the universe. But I  couldn't ignore it couldn't tell myself the lie any more couldn't keep saying I was fine. What was I doing that set me off? Finding out when I receive my meagre disbursement from indiegogo.discovering how much I'd be left with after a bunch of fees were applied.About a quarter of t